Showing posts with label Regrets. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Regrets. Show all posts

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

According to my computer’s dictionary, the word Gang means,
people who enjoy each other's company: a group of people with similar interests who like to spend time together

However, the word could also mean,
group of trouble-making young people: a group of young people who spend time together for social reasons and may engage in delinquent behaviour

group of criminals: a group of people who work together for some criminal or antisocial purpose

group of workers: a group of people working together, especially a group of labourers

set of tools: a set of tools or devices arranged to be used or operated together

In other words, the word gang can bring on to different meanings and it is left to its user to define what it really means.

I used the word gang this morning to describe a group of friends and I was taken aback by the response. I was being misunderstood. It was assumed that I was trying to portray that group of friends negatively, as if I was indicating that they were being cliquish and chose to be antisocial. I never meant that way. I used the word gang because I was too lazy to name every member of that group of friends, so I used the word gang to simplify things.

As for now, I am confused, did I use the wrong word? All I said was “I’m sure your gang is as happening as they can be”…gheeee……perhaps I should have just kept my mouth shut.

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

I wished I had.....



I was abit moody a few days ago, some things had been eating into me. I snapped. All I could think of that particular person was negative. I did not know how to respond to the person. I felt that I was being taken for granted. I had expectations which was not met. And so, I snapped and reacted, I was harsh and I guess I cut the person deep with my words. Each time I sent a harsh message to the other person, I felt good, I felt satisfied and the person did not argue back.

I woke up the very next day, feeling lousy and ashamed. Ashamed of my behaviour, ashamed of my actions. I wish I had not used those hurtful words, I wish I had not been so direct. I'm in pain right now. I have not seen the person since I sent those nasty smses. I tried to apologize but the responses I got has been pretty polite ones. I've done it again. I should not have done it but I did it.

Am I going to be forgiven? I don't know. The point that I've hurt someone's feelings hurt me and the point that I'm not forgiven hurts me deeply too.

(Penang)